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Further musings on the Virginia Tech shooting

To escape from mugging, I have been reading many articles on the latest American campus shootings online. And feeling more and more depressed.
There was this guy who actually commented that the way to stop future shootings is to allow everyone to carry guns on campus. He actually has the audacity to say that if everyone could carry guns, the killer would have been gunned down before he could kill more people. HOW WOULD LETTING EVERYONE MURDER EACH OTHER HELP THINGS? Can you imagine if you were the one who shot dead the killer, someone else rushes in with their own gun, thought you were the mad mass murderer and kills you? And the process repeats till some sane person stops the madness. This is just one hypothetical suituation...
Stuff like this makes me want to kill myself than live and understand the underlying chaos in this world.

American Uni Shooting

Random thought while studying (not that I am doing much). That South Korean killer is freaky ugly, typical Asian Chinese Yellow ugly. Oh yeah, no wonder he shot himself in the face, disfiguring his face so horribly they took some time to identify him. BUT I am ugly (and fat, worse) too and I don't go around shooting people.

I can barely pass my first year and the people he killed are promising undergraduates who are gonna graduate soon, graduate students and VERY smart professors... Gee, in terms of absolute value, I deserve to die more. Sobering thought, better get back to studying soon.

Anyway, I was talking about this case to my mom and ranting about effective gun control and she looked me in the eye and told me knives will work just as well in indiscriminate murder. Coming from a police officer, another sobering thought. Yeah, guess there is a million ways to die. If you have the intent and the opportunity, you will succeed in killing. Actually, I was quite surprised there were only 30 plus deaths, considering the accuracy of handguns in close proximity. I wonder when the next school killing record will be broken. I cannot recall if there were any injured people. If there weren't, this guy really shot to kill and the rest of the bullets were warning shots or that testosterone-driven nutcase just wanted to hear the sounds of gunfire. But then again, the kill to bullet ratio is very low in the world, thank god for that or many lives would be lost.

Last random non-sequitur, hope I don't meet him in hell. I make sure he feels that a bullet to the head is more desirable. I hate self-righteous people even insane ones.

Catharsis

I just need to rant about my slack-ness!!! All my new year resolutions have went flying out of the window! All the crap about pulling my C.A.P., BULLSHIT! I have not done any academic work (I didn't even touch my school bag except to get it out of the way so my aunt can vaccum the floor) since my lab session ended on 1pm Friday! All I did since then was sleep a total of 16 hours, give or take a few hours, watch 8.5 episodes of Hana Kimi, 1 episode of Goong S, a few minutes of Maple, and GOD KNOWS how many holes of Pangya. FUCK! What the hell is wrong with me! I STILL GOT a computing assignment to hand in tomorrow and I'm shit at computing! WTF did I get cs1101 in the first place! IT KILLED MY GENERAL ACCOUNT POINTS SOMEMORE! I spent 500++ bloody points to go into a module I probably will FAIL. FAIL, you stupid head! FAIL!

P.S. I just had to post this or I go mad. Probably because my period started yesterday. Everything I come into some kind of equilibrium about the gender divide, I get my period and I just think, "DAMN all males! BASTARDS! No need to suffer this kind of trouble their whole god damn shorter lives."